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Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 10:20AM

Post partum DJ

I’ve got kids.  Three of them.  Festus 10, Jonesie 2, Mohammed 3 months.  That’s not a lot of offspring, particularly in comparison to other Utah families.  My kids are not only beautiful (all moms think their kids are the cutest on the planet), but they are GOOD.  Festus is the most polite, easy going 4th grader.  Does his chores every day without complaint, is a great big brother and leaves me little notes on my nightstand that say “thanks for being the best mom ever!”.  Jonesie is hilarious.  Just last night my husband Joe was cutting up strawberries for dessert and she patted his arm and said “ I’m so proud of you, Daddy!”.  Mohammed never cries.  Really.  He wakes up and just coos and grins until it’s time to go back to sleep.  My beautiful husband Joe comes home from work every night and cooks me gourmet dinners that I don’t appreciate.  I know, you are puking right now, but in spite of all of this- I’m depressed-a word that has never entered my vocabulary.  I have absolutely no reason to be.  My life is truly blessed, yet here I am on the verge of tears all day long.  I know it must be a combination of being sleep deprived and fluctuating hormones.  Regardless of the cause, I feel guilty that I am down when everything in my life couldn’t be going better.  I know it’s only temporary and as soon as my baby starts sleeping through the night things will get better.  It also helps to know that there are Friends of the Program going through the same thing.  I think we all need to go to the movies together!

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    • #1   kathymtb
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 11:00AM

    Gina, I know how you are feeling as I am a working mother of two and I’ve been there myself. If you haven’t already, you should talk to your OB/GYN about how you are feeling. Post partum depression is horrible, but you don’t have to suffer; there are treatments available. Take care, we love you!!!

    • #2   heidiann7
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 11:37AM

    Gina, all your friends of the program love you!!! I’m sad that you’re sad… But don’t worry.. you just need fish oils and botox.
    And not the kind of fish oils that make you burp!
    And not the kind of botox imagined by random mean listeners!
    I just hope this made you laugh, I dont really think you need botox.
    Feel better Gina.

    • #3   rexywestminster
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 11:55AM

    Gina I love you long time, but not in that dirty
    2 Live Crew sort of way (but I’m sure you would
    be flattered otherwise)

    But you’re right--once you are able to get a successive eight hours of sleep per night, then your depressive feelings will start to abate.

    Otherwise, might I suggest Effexor?

    But that IS a good suggestion--you pick out the time and movie, and a bunch of Frends of the Program will be there to buoy you up and buy you a large plain margharita pizza or a nice plain Crown Burger (and not give you any guff about it--SHUT UP BILL!!! THE GIRL KNOWS WHAT SHE LIKES, AND GODDAMNIT, IF SHE’S HAPPY WITH IT, YOU DAMN WELL BETTER BE TOO! I’M SURE SEWER RAT TASTES LIKE PUMPKIN PIE, BUT I’LL NEVER KNOW BECAUSE I’LL NEVER EAT THE DIRTY MOTHERFU...and so on) and some ice cream afterwards! Yes! You need to surround yourself with FOP love! Yes! You need a posse, like that sweet girl Julia Roberts! Yes! You need to get away from that perfect family of yours and focus on GINA! Nobody else! And be surrounded by FOPs that love Gina! Yes! If Jonesie can get a potty parade, why not a I Love Gina Parade?

    I, for one, am in.

    But not in a dirty 2 Live Crew sort of way (but I’m sure you would be flattered nonetheless)

    • #4   Hetty_22
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 12:29PM

    Gina,
    I often feel the same way. I know that my life isn’t that bad compared to other people I know but I get depressed and it makes me feel guilty. You’ll get through it!!! I’ll go see a chick flick with you anytime. : )

    Heather

    • #5   KDAMom
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 12:40PM

    Gina,

    I completly understand where you’re coming from!  My second daugther just turned 10 months, I had finally started to feel like myself again and I found out last week that I am pregnant again!  Total accident!  To make it better, my husband is going to “get fixed” next Friday!  Oh well.  I’m there with you and anytime you want a movie, I’m in!!  Hang in there, it will get better. smile

    • #6   hottieski
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 2:44PM

    Gina,
    I feel for you. I am also a monther of a 3 month old and don’t feel up to par. In fact I feel down right weepy and scared sometimes. I just keep remembering that it is the hormones, lack of sleep and having to work full time that is bringing me down. I did talk to my doc and am taking meds. It has helped me. It also helps me to know I am sooo not alone in the post partum. You are awesome and keep talkin’!
    Luv ya!!!

    smile

    • #7   larisa
    • Friday, April 4th, 2008 @ 3:38PM

    Gina,

    I’m so sorry you are going through this! I also have three kids.  I had postpartum with the 2nd and it was scary.  Knowing you “should” be happy when you are not seems to make it worse.  It may pass on it’s own fairly quickly, but please don’t hesitate to speak to your Dr. about it.  A little education may alleviate your fears.  I’m up for a movie night, unfortunately I am in Logan…
    Take good care of yourself.

    • #8   bfop
    • Monday, April 7th, 2008 @ 8:33AM

    Gina,

    Hang in there. You still have your looks! Email me about the movie thing and we’ll go.

    • #9   clevrwetnoodle
    • Monday, April 7th, 2008 @ 8:34AM

    I appreciate listening to Gina every morning. And I also appreciate this blog and seeing this side of her. At times life seems perfect but the feelings don’t quite fit… it happens to everyone and it sucks. Nothing to complain about, but nothing feels right. I get that way sometimes. Spontaneity seems to make me feel better and get out of my skin. Going to a movie and being with friends seems about right.

    • #10   melflashyo
    • Monday, April 7th, 2008 @ 8:38AM

    Gina,

    I think all us working mothers feel this way.  My husband and I had our first child in January 2007 after 4 years of infertility treatments and several miscarriages.  At first I was elated.  Here was my child that we had worked so hard for.  Then came the depression.  I cried because she didn’t look like me(my husband is hispanic, I’m white and she was as brown as could be).  Then I just went into to constant worry mode.  She was colicy and I couldn’t sleep at night because if she actually was sleeping, I thought something was wrong.  I honestly thought it would’ve been easier if she was still inside me.  Now she’s a little over a year old and I’m all better, but it took awhile and a very understanding husband.  I’m honestly surprised he did leave.  Hang in there Gina!  It will get better!

    • #11   natjcksn
    • Monday, April 7th, 2008 @ 7:55PM

    Gina-

    I have also recently struggled with this (my third baby was born in Dec.) The best therapy for me has been listening to the show.  I put the podcasts on my ipod and listen to them when I am up at night feeding or throughout the day when I have some time.  It gives me some laughs and it makes me feel like I have some contact with grownups.  Thank you for this.  Also, thank you for sharing your feelings with us.  I hope that you will get help from your doctor if it gets too bad.  Thanks for letting me listen!

    • #12   masmith103@hotmail.com
    • Thursday, April 10th, 2008 @ 2:18PM

    Gina, I only have one baby that is almost 1 year old and even as late as today I feel like I just want to cry all day long. I have a great job and husband like you and don’t feel like I have the right. But we do have the right to have a little PMS - poor me syndrome for just a minute or two. Everyone gets down. I love what you and the others bring to this show. You have a great set up with the three of you. I’m a podcaster because I want to enjoy your show to the very last drop. Like others have said thanks for sharing that your real and that you feel with everyone. Hang in there it will get better a little bit every day.  Thanks for letting me listen and comment!!!

    • #13   raisingirl
    • Monday, April 21st, 2008 @ 12:03PM

    I know the feeling Gina… My husband is the sweetest thing ever, I am a stay at home Mom with only one child (3)My husband works from home, so he lets me sleep in every morning. And my son is awesome, totally a cool kid, does the cutest stuff ever (boy I sound like a hill billy) any way we all get down… I get depressed cuz I can’t eat three old fashion cake donuts without getting an a** the size of Texas and because it’s my job to do laundry.  So don’t feel bad just look on the bright side, Joe loves ya and I am sure you could fine some great juciy sweats to put on...they always cheer me up

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